The Weight Is Over

Defining Yourself

by Wendy on May 19, 2012

Today I went on a field trip with my daughter’s choir to Six Flags New England. Well, actually we went to a chorus and band competition (Where we received a God Medal – YAY !) and afterwards we went to the amusement park. I was among a group on ladies who went to be chaperons. Being a chaperone when you’re with Middle School kids is totally different- apparently is does not require shadowing kids- but just being available should the kids need us. So my new friend Sarah and I started walking around the park. I knew I had 10,000 steps to get in today, and I was ready to get it done. Sarah and I came across a really cool looking roller coaster: Bizzaro

Normally, I am not the bravest roller coaster rider. I have had a great fear of not only roller coasters, but being able to fit on them. I was pretty sure I would be fine because I had lost all this weight, plus I saw people who were my size or bigger in line. So Sarah and I get on the line and prepare to wait 90 120 minutes to ride. We chatted with people in line as we waited and I got more and more nervous… it was nearly our turn, and I was scared to DEATH! We were next to get on, and I was still scared silly, both of the ride and of whether or not I’d be able to fit. I was feeling pretty optimistic since I had ridden some of the other roller coasters in the park with Aedan last year. The cars pulled up, and Sarah and I climbed in. It was tight fit but I snuggled into the car, and went to put on the seat belt.

It didn’t fit.

I was immediately flooded with shame, horror and despair, not to mention embarrassment and HUGE disappointment. I smiled weakly at Sarah and told her that I couldn’t ride as the seat belt wouldn’t work. I climbed out and told her I’d wait for her at the gate. I felt as if every single person on that line (and there were hundreds) were pointing at me and talking about me I thought the were repeating the stuff I was saying in my mind. I was too fat, unworthy,and a lesser person because I couldn’t fit on the ride. I really wanted to go grab an ice cream, or cotton candy or cheese fries and go sit and pout.

Then I stopped, took a DEEP breath,and decided to stop! Those are NOT the type of thoughts I needed to be thinking. It was not worthy of all the hard work and commitment I’ve been putting in.. I decided to think about all the awesome things I’ve been doing lately.

I’ve been kicking BUTT on the Mamavation Campaign 12
I’m down from nearly a size 28 to a size 18
I’ve lost LOTS of pounds and inches this year
I’ve changed the way my family and I eat
I’ve made real changes to our lives in every way
I am SO MUCH BETTER THAN THOSE TERRIBLE THOUGHTS.

And I am. Not fitting on a roller coaster was embarrassing, sure, but it didn’t make me a bad person. It didn’t make all those awesome changes and progress I’ve made worthless. It just meant I had a little more work to do FOR THIS RIDE ONLY. There were plenty of other roller coasters that would fit on. I didn’t need ice cream or cheese fries to make myself better. I had prepared and brought with me healthy food and snacks. I had eaten some of my lunch on the bus, and so Sarah and I split a grilled buffalo chicken wrap with lots of lettuce and veggie and a little cheese. I refilled my water bottle and walk by the ice cram booth, and the fried dough and reminded myself I had an apple and some peanut butter on the bus for a snack.

I also reminded myself how hard I had been working as Mamavation Mom. I didn’t want to disappoint anyone including MYSELF, so I just drank my water and walked to try and get my steps in. I ended up only getting in about 9300 steps, so when I got home, exhausted, I had to go for a walk around the block to get in enough step. Then I pulled up my big girl panties and completed my workout,and had another LARGE glass of water.

And I still sad? Honestly, yes I am. But I am NOT devastated. I am energized to work harder so I can get on that damn roller coaster by the end of the summer. I am so motivated to make this happen. I promise myself that I will.

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Happy Mother’s Day

by Wendy on May 14, 2012

What a difference a year makes!

I’ve been working really hard as a Mamavation Mom keeping up with the exercises and the food plans and yes, I am exhausted and having a great time but today isn’t about My Mamavation Mom journey. Today is all about how different this years Mother’s Day is not just for me, but for my family

Last year there were gifts and a big dinner out and lots of vegging around watching TV. This year was heartfelt all homemade gifts, all from their hearts. I had lovely poems and drawings and cards. and even thought I wept,(of course I did- even a handwritten poem by my love) it was with joy. Then we all went for a nice long hike/walk and took some photos while we were at it.

I love that our new go-to for having fun is something physical as a family. I love that instead of a rich dinner out, we had a simple stir fry and laughed as we ate together. I love that I’ve made so many changes to myself this past 9 months,that my family has made these changes too. That is more awesome gift I received this Mother’s Day- that all my family has embraced my changes and we are all doing this together.

Happy Mother’s Day.

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It’s Time to Name the Mama!

by Wendy on April 30, 2012

It’s been a crazy few weeks since I put my name into the ring to be a Mamavation Mom. Mamavation Moms take part in a virtual online social media weight loss boot camp. I wanted to be a Mamavation Mama because I’ve been working so hard by myself- but need a little kick in the butt to get going, Plus, I am finally ready to take on the challenge!

I have so many feeling swirling around: hope, excitement, giddiness, fear and I’m kinda just lost.. waiting for tonight’s twitter party. The thing is – any one of the women who are in for Mamavation Mom will be great- Amber, Hanan, Sherry, Amanda, and myself- and I wish good luck and lots of love an support to the next two Mamavation Moms, whomever they may be!

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$100 Paypal Giveaway

by Wendy on April 23, 2012

It’s time! I wrote all abouthow excited I am to be running for Mamavtion Mom. What’s a Mamavation Mom? “Mamavation Moms lose weight in a boot camp experience without having to leave the home. They are set up with support, tools, and professional coaches to help transform mind and body on this journey. As they are learning healthy living and losing weight they live their lives on a stage for seven weeks. The campaign becomes a virtual docudrama with real challenges and victories as they become the stars of the campaign.” Oh, yeah, that’s SO me. I wanna rock out a weight loss boot camp in the open for all to see. I am hosting a giveaway to show JUST how excited I am! I’m giving away $100 cash via PAYPAL to celebrate the kickoff of the 12th Mamavation Mom Campaign.

That’s $100 to do with ANYTHING you want!

Who can WIN? ANYONE! It’s open to anyone and everyone who has a Paypal account- anywhere in the world!

a Rafflecopter giveaway

Just fill out this lil’ ol Rafflecopter, and you’ll be on your way to winning BIG while hopefully I become the next Mamavtion Mom and LOSE BIG! Thanks for your support!

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Mamavation Mahem

by Wendy on April 22, 2012

This Monday is an important night for all of us Mamavation Sista’s who have our names in the ring to compete for Mamavation Mom. We find out the final five, those of us that will be feverishly asking everyone we know to vote for us- and losing our mind this week hazing and journaling and voting and trolling not to mention tweeting and facebooking and posting all while being slightly terrified that we WILL make it as a Mamavation Mom as well as hoping beyond hope that we have enough votes to make it as one.

PHEW.

Another sista wrote a poignant note on Facebook about how she spent the day weeping more because of the emotional changes that committing to this crazy campaign brings. And I have to say I totally get what she was talking about.

This is IT people. This is the REAL FREAKING DEAL. Before, losing weight was all about my own personal journey and I had only to answer to me. But now, if I make it, I have eleventy thousand people who are going to be watching and reading and HOLY SHIT ON A SHINGLE SEEING MY FEET ON A SCALE WITH MY WEIGHT SHOWING. MY REAL weight. On some kinda crazy scale that also gives out fat grams or percentages or some kinda stuff I’m not quite sure of and OMG I have to write down that bite I stole of Aedan’s mac & cheese for the WORLD to see. No wine. OMG no wine or margaritas or Café Patron. Did I mention eleventy thousand people watching, not just blogs but vlogs, PEOPLE. DEEP BREATHES.

Because I choose to see it to mean that eleventy thousand people are going to be around, yes, but CHEERING ME ON and encouraging and not judging. Lots and lots of information and support and love and yeah, even tough love if needed. Trainers to kick my butt, Alyssa to help me figure out what to eat, Leah and Shelley and Meagan and all the Sista’s there who “:got my back” oh, yeah – they do.

And me. Me deciding that doing this THIS BIG means I’m honoring this changes that I decided to make over a year ago- the change that got me from a nearly size 28 to a size 18(ish) and down about 35ish pounds in total. From the woman who cried on her first spin class to being a Spin Warrior. It means I am totally going to honor the Sistahood and give it 100%. It does not mean that I won’t mess up, but it means I will give my all and not give up on myself.

So, Monday night I find out if I get to go bananas and try to get enough votes to get even CRAZIER and become a Mamavation Mom. Even if I don’t make it to the next step- I see that I have a LOT of people behind me and I got this. I’m about to start an incredible journey, no matter what!

Please stay tuned!

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What a Difference

by Wendy on April 19, 2012

This week is spring break for our kids. A whole week off from school with nothing, really that we have to do. In the past we would have watched lots of movies, played some board games, did some shopping, hung out and generally just been together. I really realized this week (so far) how much different our lives are since I started my quest to get healthy.

So far, this week through Wednesday, we have gone on a long hike, taken numerous walks, been bike riding, had a trip to the gym nearly every day, had some basketball playoffs, attempted a few recipe makeovers, made our own fro-zo, brought grapes with us to the movies and drank GALLONS of water as a family. We were even in New York and didn’t pig out at Grandma’s. We each chose something that we really wanted to have and had one piece.

Guess what happened? When my family wasn’t looking, making healthy choices has become habit to them! Oh, not all the way, and not all the time, but for the most part- we are making healthier choices. I am SO proud of them!

I know that part of it is that they kind of had no choices- I don’t bring the “bad stuff” in the house- no more soda allowed (except as a treat on occasion) and I make the plans, so I can plan a hike as easily as a movie night. But they have to be on board, too. And they are!

What changes have to made with your family to get healthy?

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A Week of Hazing

by Wendy on April 16, 2012

This week was the beginning of my hazing as a Mamavation Mom Candidate. I’ve put my name into the hat to hopefully be chosen as a Mamavation Mom. What is a Mamavation Mom? “Mamavation Moms lose weight in a boot camp experience without having to leave the home. They are set up with support, tools, and professional coaches to help transform mind and body on this journey. As they are learning healthy living and losing weight they live their lives on a stage for seven weeks. The campaign becomes a virtual docudrama with real challenges and victories as they become the stars of the campaign.”

Oh, yeah… I wanna be a weight loss rock star!!! One of the ways to show that I am serious and am committed to being a MM (and showing I can do it) is to participate in a few weeks of “hazing”. This week, we’ve had twice a day workouts tweeted to us, like this:

#mamavation applicants: 30 mountain climbers, 20 pushups, 20 squats, 20 calf raises @bookieboo

OK, GO! So I’ve been working out with the hazing,and adding in a 2-3 mile walk in each day. PLUS I FINALLY got in some gym time with my Jamie and pals on Thursday. Here’s a peek at what we did.

Not only that, but on Saturday, I had to come up with my own plan, I decided that I had a lot to do at home so I’m make it up as I went along, so I raked most of the front yard, dragged away lots of branches that fell during our last storm, swept the driveway, moved, cleaned and replaced the porch furniture, than I went inside and swept all the floors, and then got ready for a 2.5 mile walk. After the walk, Aedan and I played a game of basketball “21”, then I put laundry away and carried stuff up and down the basement stairs. PHEW. I was tired. I didn’t need a set up workout to burn calories—I burned them just thinking differently for one day.

I’m so excited to be participating in this Mamavation project! I’ve watched a few campaigns come and go, and I’ve always loved reading about the journeys that the Mamas are on. I’ve wanted to participate before, but needed to make sure it was the right time. I wanted to give back the the community that I’ve been part of for over a year- and do the Mamavation Moms challenge for the right reasons- because I was ready to commit and DO it- to give it my all. Mamavation has been my weight loss rock and giving and getting support with these ladies is what has helped keep me going for over a year. now. Wanna help me? I’d really appreciate your support and help in getting Leah’s attention- shoot her a tweet like this: “Hey @bookieboo! I want @weightsover to be the next #Mamavation Mom. She has my support! http://bit.ly/aorv3Y” and/or you can post a message on the Mamavation Page Here telling them why you think that I deserved to be a Mamavation Mom. ( You can always copy and paste “Hey, Leah! I want Wendy D. to be the next Mamavation Mom- she has my support!”) .

This is my plan for the week:

I plan to keep kicking butt on the Hazing.
I plan to journal my food every day
I plan to add more steps to my day.

All in all , I’ve had a pretty terrific week, too! I lost a total of 6.5 pounds since I signed up for this Mamavation Campaign- I was able to wear a pair of jeans tonight that I wasn’t able to button just a month ago, and I greatly reduced the stress in my house. AND I peed 13 times in one day and drank 210 ounces of water.

I’m looking forward to this week and everything that goes along with it! Smile

“This post is sponsored by Motion Medica and hosted by Mamavation – a community dedicated to obesity prevention & weight loss for women and I’m writing this to be entered into a giveaway”

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Shakeology 3 Day Cleanse

by Wendy on April 12, 2012

I am friends with Frannie and Kristina on a Facebook Fitness Group. They are both Beachbody Coaches and talk a lot about the workouts they are doing, and the foods and shakes they are drinking. They are such fitness ROCKSTARS that honestly they intimidated me until I really got to know them much better (Bunco and wine may or may not have had something to do with that)! AND they are so very supportive on our Group page. A few times they spoke about cleanses, but I didn’t pay a whole of of attention to it because honestly, I am a slow and steady kind of gal, not a huge believer in cleanses, but I have always been intrigued by how much weight they’d lose! They invited me to try it with them last week,I figured I’d give it a try and see how it went for me. Here was the plan:

3 Shakeology shakes a day (Chocolate, Greenberry, and Strawberry Tropical)
2 servings of fruit a day
Dinner is a big green salad with 3 servings vegetables and 4 ounces protein
Green tea
Water

There is so much awesome stuff in the shakes- I used water, so it was 150 calories.. and full of vitamin and fiber and all kinds of goodness. Gluten Free, too and low G.I. This is the chocolate shake:

Calories 150
Calories from Fat 10
Total Fat 1 g 2%
Saturated Fat 0
Trans Fat 0 g
Cholesterol 15 mg
Sodium 100 mg
Total Carbohydrate 17 g
Dietary Fiber 3 g
Sugars 9 g
Protein 18 g

So, back to the cleanse: No coffee . No dairy products. Just stick to the plan and watch for results. .

Day 1. Hey, this is FUN! I like green tea so swapping it for my coffee was no big deal. Chocolate Shakeology for breakfast (YUM!) Apple at 10ish, Greenberry Shake at lunchtime, (Yum) another apple at 4ish, and a large salad with veggies and 4 ounces of grilled chicken. I saved my last shake for night when I knew I would be “snacky”. I had the Strawberry Tropical, and um, not yum. But I drank it. I had lots of water and green tea in between. Honestly, I never peed so much in my life! But I wasn’t very hungry. I did not get big workouts in on any of the days- I had a sick kid home- but I tried to keep moving all day.

Day 2. Woke up ready for green tea and Greenberry Shakeology. I, personally LOVE the Greenberry- it reminds me of a Green Smoothie- rather earthy and to me, simple yummy. I added an apple in the mid morning, and had Strawberry Shake for lunch. Strawberry is my least favorite of the three. I know that it is all natural,but it tasted a little fake to me I was beginning to feel rather peckish even after having a banana at 3ish- it may have had something to do with going grocery shopping, but had to feed my family! I was really looking forward to my salad that night. I was supposed to have the chocolate shake for my shake that night, but I fell asleep before I could have it.

Day 3. I woke up hungry! Made my shake as my green tea brewed. wolfed down an apple, and tried hard not to think about how hungry I was. I SUCKED down glass after glass of water and green tea, and made my next Greenberry shake at 12 on the DOT. At 2pm, I was still hungry, so I had yet another apple,and was still hungry, so I added in a few celery stalks. I had a headache and was grumpy (so says my family). I totally chowed down my salad with chicken and looked forward to my shake at 8pm. I honestly could not wait for it to be over.

THE WEIGH IN: The first thing the next morning morning I couldn’t wait to see the final results:

3 pounds! I lost 3 pounds!

Somehow I expected more. Tracking my calories, I saw that I was only eating around 900 calories a day. I, personally, know that I need more than that-. WAY more -like at least another 500 calories a day to lose weight! I know that my body does not lose weight on severely restricted calories, but will clamp down and hold in case I am starving or something. I think that you’re supposed to do some butt kicking exercises,(Kristina and Frannie do like Px90 or something 4 times a day) – but I was home with a sick kid and had enough of a hard time keeping up with just her. I’m kinda glad I didn’t get all exercise crazy or my body may have eaten itself.

WHAT I THINK: I’m a HUGE fan of the Shakeology shakes. I think that they are a great option to have around for a quick meal replacement maybe ONCE a day- or even a great after school snack for the kids. I am going to buy a bag of the chocolate to have at home for breakfasts not only for me, but for my daughter who needs to be sure to get in more nutrients. I am not a fan of the cleanse, but to be fair, I am not really a fan of any cleanse. I thought that the calorie count for the day was far too low to result in any real weight loss,and I was right- I lost 3 pounds, but I put them back on. That may or may not have been due to Easter, but the bottom line is to lose weight and keep it off, it’s a slow and steady race, not starving your body of calories for a quick show. Beachbody is VERY open about saying that a cleanse is just a way to jump start weight loss- it is not healthy to eat that way all the time. That being said, I see Shakeology being a HUGE part of my slow and steady approach to weight loss. I’m pretty sure if you have at least ONE Shakeology a day your WILL notice a difference.

Want to try Shakeology for yourself? Reach out to Frannie Caco or Kristina Martinelli. Both ladies are very inspirational and both are coaches for the Beachbody system.

Disclosure: I was not paid or compensated in any way other than being provided with the Shakeology shakes needed to complete the cleanse. All opinions are my own.

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Stress Kills…..

by Wendy on April 9, 2012

Last week has been hellish in many way, with my daughter being diagnosed with Lyme Disease among other things, and me being pretty much chained to the house near her unless Dave is home to spell me. I also had to use any extra time that SHE didn’t need me to give to Aedan since he was being pushed aside for her. Add to that falling down a few steps and badly bruising my tailbone (yeah, I broke my BUTT!) taking my dog with a slipped disk down the stairs, STILL trying to get rid of a bad cold, dealing with my father in law being sick again and being hospitalized from his nursing home, a 3 day cleanse, and having ABSOLUTELY NOT ONE SECOND OF GYM TIME has left me…

EMPTY. I am totally on Empty and running on fumes.

I know that things are slowly going to get better. They will. They have to. But oh MAN hope something happens soon! I feel lost, and out of control. I feel powerless in a lot of ways and that is a way I HATE to feel. Being in control is very important to me. Year ago,the hardest part of cancer treatment was losing control and power over myself. In fact, I got into blogging over 11 years ago with a blog detailing my treatment plans and info for my friend and to show them where I needed help. It was my way of keeping a tiny bit of control over what I was going through. Yup, another thing that is hard for me,ASKING FOR HELP. Right now, no one can really help me (except if anyone wants to pay my heating oil bill, feel free! lol) but the most helpful thing that I have had is the texts, emails, messages and tweets from my friends who are around to say, “Hey, I’m here.” I appreciate that so much more than you will ever, EVER know.

Another way I am taking back control is to NOT LOSE CONTROL of my weight loss journey. I do not need to go to a gym to get exercise, I can use a DVD, my treadmill (My elliptical is broken! WAH!) I have hand weights and an exercise ball and I can do a lot of things at home. I can most certainly eat right, and make sure I am giving my body what it needs.

This week, I will:

Drink in more water
Plan my menu for the week
Include more veggies
Use an exercise tape or the Xbox Kinect at least once when I’m not
Keeping up with the Mamavation Moms Hazing

Yes, I said hazing- I have my hat in the ring to be chosen to be a Mamavation Mom in the next campaign. I know that I would be an awesome Mamavation Mom an it’s giving me a focus to work toward when all else is a little nutso here. I could really use your support. You can view my video where I tell you why I would be the BEST Mamavation Mom my video here.

I NEED YOUR HELP and would really appreciate your support and help in getting Leah’s attention- shoot her a tweet like this: “Hey @bookieboo! I want @weightsover to be the next #Mamavation Mom. She has my support! http://bit.ly/aorv3Y” and/or you can post a message on the Mamavation Page Here telling them why you think that I deserved to be a Mamavation Mom. ( You can always copy and paste “Hey, Leah! I want Wendy D. to be the next Mamavation Mom- she has my support!”) .

NON SCALE VICTORY: I committed to letting go of a few things this week that were really stressing me out. They were things that I wanted to do, but with all I had going on they were freaking me out and I had to find a way to make it go away so I could concentrate on other things. It was very hard for me to do, but necessary for my sanity and stress levels. I simply said, NO.I can’t do this right now at this point in my life. I’m sorry I had to do it, but I am so glad I did.

“This post is sponsored by Handi-Foil and hosted by Mamavation – a community dedicated to obesity prevention & weight loss for women and I’m writing this to be entered into a giveaway”

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Staying Fit while Being Sick

by Wendy on April 1, 2012

This week we have all been sick with a wicked cold. The good thing was that it was just a cold, and nothing worse, and the bad thing was that it was just a cold, so there was nothing to do but ride it out. Being the Mama of the family- that means I had days to devote myself to taking care of sick ones, then of course I caught the cold and have been knock on my BUTT. I literally spent most of Friday and Saturday in bed. Thankfully ‘I’m feeling slightly better today- I can actually get out of bed, but Dave is on his way down.

This week I was participating in the Mamavation 2Week Challenge. Or at least I tried my best to participate as well as I could. I do work out a few times a week, but this particular challenge was VERY hard, even the beginner one. I tried my best. It kicked my butt. and to be honest, I couldn’t do it all. The walkup pushups area a killer. I could only do two, then I fell on my face- but I kept trying and trying. The whole thing was really hard for me. But because it was hard for me didn’t make me give up- I just gave my 100%- and every bit I could. I was doing well with my workouts and the steps when “THE COLD” struck.

I was so annoyed that couldn’t do as much as the challenge as I wanted. I had to slow down and do only what my body would let me. I realized that knowing my limits could only make me stronger. The way I see it, in order to move forward you need to know your breaking point so you can move past it! Even though the challenge is over this week, I can going to continue with it this week to make up for my lost time.

I also noticed I do things differently than I do even 6 months when someone was ill. The “old” way would mean chicken noodle soup, or cream of chicken soup with lots of Ritz crackers, sherbet, ginger ale, Sprite, ice pops, and tea with lots of milk and sugar. This time, we had lots and lots of ice water with crushed ice and lemon, ginger tea, homemade chicken soup with dill and lemon with a little noodles but lots of vegetables. Homemade sorbet and fruit smoothies made with skim milk, ice and frozen fruit. The best part? I didn’t have to think twice about it. It was second nature.

That’s where this weeks Mamavation Monday questions comes into play:

What is one health lesson you want to teach your kids?

I want them to know that being healthy is a way of life- something you do naturally. I want them to know that being healthy isn’t a DIET, but a way of life. That it’s ok to have a cookie, a glass of soda, a few potato chips if your normal way of life is healthy. That it’s second nature to take the stairs, park far away, walk the dogs, go for a bike ride.

As part of my adventure in teaching my family how to live a healthy lifestyle- I am applying to be the next Mamavation Mom. You can view my video where I tell you why I would be the BEST Mamavation Mom my video here. I NEED YOUR HELP and would really appreciate your support and help in getting Leah’s attention- shoot her a tweet like this: “Hey @bookieboo! I want @weightsover to be the next #Mamavation Mom. She has my support! http://bit.ly/aorv3Y” and/or you can post a message on the Mamavation Page Here telling them why you think that I deserved to be a Mamavation Mom. ( You can always copy and paste “Hey, Leah! I want Wendy D. to be the next Mamavation Mom- she has my support!”) .

I am really excited and hopeful that I’ll be chosen, and I promise to work my BUTT off (hopefully!!) as a Mamavation Mom!

NON SCALE VICTORIES THIS WEEK- my super tight jean now fit, and look good!!! yay! AND I gave myself permission to do MY best, not kill myself to keep up with people I can’t keep up with (yet!!)

Weight Loss Victories this week: I lost 1.6 pounds this week- since applying to be a Mamavation Mom!

“This post is sponsored by Fitness Made Simple and hosted by Mamavation – a community dedicated to obesity prevention & weight loss for women and I’m writing this to be entered into a giveaway

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What a Difference

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